looking back 3 yrs i have had with someone I cherish, love and care.
Its something I had never been able to express in words till today, when I have a chance to find out from the one I love what she has said out in her blog.
I have tried my best to provide what she desired and always wants. However, no matter how I tried and give there is always not enough .
Am I not good enough or not capable enough ?? I have never treated someone that well in my entire life. Or is this just an excuse to myself?
I am utterly disappointed when I saw something that comes out from her bottom of her heart. Although we agreed to cool down for the next few days but past memories on what we had done, where we had been and what we have been through kept refreshing in my head. I felt nothing but there is this sour feeling in my heart. I felt sweet and warm when we were out in a Malaysia where only the 2 of us to depend on each another if something happen. I felt comfortable when you are around even though we are doing something else separetely.
Why I always nag and complain of your working late...? Bcoz I care for ur health and diet. Not bcoz I dont trust you.
Why I always sided you bcoz og ur mumm issue...? bcoz I dont want you to get hurt again.
Why I always wanted you to be by my side...? Bcoz I want to make sure you are safe and sound.
You are someone who is really indespenable to me...but why must you make that type of comment like wasting ur time with me? I am equally spending my time and I had never had that feeling of wasting time on U.
Bocz I love you.
I am utterly disappointed. My heart is broken and that is all I can feel and say.
