no more special occasion

I wont want any celebration for any special occasion for me in future. I hate special dates as they make me feel lonesome and sucks when these dates turn out to be alone. What accompanied me today is my dear running shoes and what else? I dont want all these dates anymore, it serve no purpose to me
Fuck all special dates.

Nobody knows my intention never mind but there is no reason why this particular person does not know what my doing all these while. If still chose to self block mentally, i really speechless.