时间不能冲淡一切

i always think that times can allow a person to heal their wound. But that doesnt applys to me. Every place, everything, every moment, every music and every movement or action that I do.... remind me of someone.
Keep asking myself to walk out of shadow and go forward. After a big round of trying, i find myself at the starting point of my sadness. I have no one to speak to. I have nothing to look forward to. I am still living in the shadow of the past 3 and half yrs. I miss those days but i know that going back to the past (where i really feel that i have live happily although there is alot of quarels) is simply no possible. Probably that someone already happily leading her life. I dont long for anything but just a simple wish....pls stay  healthy and happy is my sincere wishes to u and the memories of u will always stay in my deepest place in my heart for the rest of my life.
I pray to god that u really can and have met someone that can take good care of u bcoz to me... u are always so LZ.

Happiness

I am no longer long for the happiness and blissful family life that I have always expected. Looking at the situation and my age, I know where I am heading and what I will expect from the future. I dont expect much as long as those things and person that I have in my heart are doing well and stay happy and healthy, I am contented.

Those memories I had, how I wish I can have an serious concussion and forget everything. I laugh my way through, joke my rounds with friends and colleagues but I could not bluff myself that I have moved on. I live in shadow. The things I do, the places I go, even the timing I read, reminds me of something and somebody that has that impact in my life. Why cant I move on? I just cant step out of that shadow......................

Recently I knew something. I have learned that my fairy tale has changed its ending.
Gone........it has gone. I am hurt,terribly hurt........ never will expect anything in my fairy tale again.

what I want to say is......as long as you are happy and healthy, I am contented. Take care Bxx.